He has wanted me my whole life. He used an ocean to snatch me. He used a boss to crush my soul. He used a fire to suffocate me. He used a friend to kill me. A bridge was to be my grave. A car was to be my tomb. A home was to be my hell. A church was to be my tormentor. And yet, here I stand, my life begging the question, am I cursed? I know what it is to be a coward like Peter, a murderer like Paul, a drunk like Noah, a liar like Abraham, a fool like Samson and lost like Solomon and a question mark like Nicodemous. What will it take for me to be His? This author is a born-again Christian saved by grace these last 37 years-a graduate of Grand Canyon University with a Bachelor's in Psychology and a Master's in Divinity. I am a student at Regent University working on my doctorate, an ordained and licensed Senior Chaplain with the International Fellowship of Chaplains and facilitator on the Billy Graham evangelistic team chatline, an ordained deaconess and member of the AME Church Emmanuel District 2. I desire that all who read this book will cleanse their hearts with the saving cleansing blood of Jesus and be set free as I was in salvation and sanctification. I'd like you to please learn from me.