I could never describe the pain men have caused me Until one day I took a pen to a paper And the pain flowed I want you to know I can relate to numbness Not having worth, waking up next to different men I survived self sabotage I didn't do it by loving myself or knowing I was worth it I did it by writing Writing my pain Writing about the devil Writing about the woman in the mirror Writing about my haunting shadows The devil for me was always a man The women in the mirror is my choices And my shadows are my consequences These realizations of my life and myself Helped me heal of a pain I had hidden A pain of a toxic relationship That almost killed me This is how healed It's a journey and I know now it's never ending