This story is about my daily experiences dealing with pain that death brings and my process in attempting to overcoming the issues of life as I walk it out on my way home. I am also learning that pain has a purpose. One of the result of pain is that you can become bitter and abort what God wants you to birth or you can make the decision to endure the pain as you bring forth a new birth into the earth. Hopefully my experience will help someone who is now experiencing the pain of losing a mate to the grim reaper. As for me, I declare that I am not a widow because I believe Joseph is al in heaven waiting for me.