At this very moment, you are not only holding a book; you are holding the testimony of my life and my struggle with schizophrenia. you If decide to read it you will take a journey through a horrific tragedy through the eyes and mind of a paranoid psychotic man, years of hospitalization; psychotropic medications with side effects that sometimes seemed worse than schizophrenia, reconstructive surgeries, and a trial that held my freedom in the balance. You'll read of the years of continued drug and alcohol abuse, the self-defeating sabotaging of good things in my life, even when I was not aware of how I was destroying any hope of recovery. To be perfectly honest; I did not know if I wanted recovery. All I could feel was guilt and shame. Then it happened; a supernatural experience with the Lord of all the earth. That night I received my salvation. Now I had hope! My life has not been the same since that night. Yes, there were still ups and downs and four more years of hospitalization, but this time it was different; I had a whole new outlook. Today I am a free man and it is all because of Jesus. If you decide to read this book I hope you will not be disappointed.