"We are Spiritual beings having a Human experience". My difficulties were tremendous in trying to find comfort and acceptance, in my new life without my beautiful child, Bella Zoe Remey. As Bella was relentless in her ability to send me signs that life does indeed go on, even after death. The signals I received told me she was alright and I would be alright. Her signs were not just to me but to many people around me who loved Bella so. I am very blessed to be given the signs from "the other side" and know now just how special Bella was and is. Still, with all that I was given, these signs still couldn't sustain me. I was in a free-fall with no end in sight. Her death forced me to deal with my childhood issues, co-dependency and a rocky marriage that had propelled me down a path that I was unable to navigate on my own. My new normal was something that I wasn't prepared for and didn't want. Unknowing, that my child's death, would lead me to a greater understanding and my participation in moving myself forward in life. After much time and work, this loss brought me to find again, a purpose in life and to have the ability to go on without my child. When I felt like happiness would be an impossibility and always outside of my reach, I was finally able to turn the corner and achieve the will to go on. I realized that this terrible loss, would forever change my life. Bella helped me to go on and push forward and I discovered that her death was not in vain. Bella helped me to discover a strength I never knew I had, deep within me. No greater love will ever be. As her mother, I was given the opportunity to show her to the world and my eternal love for Bella is inextinguishable, even in her death.