At 31, Benjamin Byer was diagnosed with ALS (Lou Gehrig's Disease) that portended nothing but certain death within two to four years. Grief descended on his family, leaving an emptiness that could not be filled or excised, only reshaped and absorbed. As Ben sought new meaning for what remained of his life, his mother, Barbara, reconstructed hers with courage, humor, anger, and grit, finding ways to ride the storm, drifting, plunging and resurfacing. This gripping memoir of Barbara's journey allows the reader a felt experience of a heartbreaking journey of love, acceptance and peace.