Despair and hope, longing for death and rays of hope - Pelle Anders deals with strokes of fate, the separation from his wife, silence and the lack of attention from those around him in 70 emotional poems. In the verses, he deals with the meaning of life and the question of whether, for example, death, cigarettes or similar can be a solution. Writing helps Anders to get through the depressive phases, which he prefers to call "sensory integration disorder": "... Sleepless in bed: / What remains for me in such a night? / The crap is put down on paper / So that the brain switches off, / and sleep manages the nonsense!" In his "very own psychotherapeutic session", the author takes his readers on a rollercoaster of emotions.